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A Fresh Start

Today is a fresh start. God gives us a fresh start EVERY day! Lamentations 3:22-23 (in the NKJV) says, “Through the Lord’s mercies we are not consumed, Because His compassions fail not. They are new every morning; Great is Your faithfulness.” And as a mama of 2 little guys, I need that compassion every minute, every SECOND some days!!

God has been ~gently~ pushing me & leading me to start writing, again! He is giving me a fresh perspective and a fresh vision! I know I have a story (or two or three or fifty lol) to share and my journey CAN help other young moms like me. I want other moms to KNOW they are not alone, that there is ALWAYS someone out there; even if it’s through the computer screen!  {I have been scared to start this journey of writing again. God has given me the signs multiple times through the last year or two, but I always find an excuse to not take make the time to write. But that stops today! I have to do this!}

The beginning of my motherhood journey has been, in all honesty, lonely! We live in a rural area on a street with very private neighbors. Everyone is friendly but we’re definitely not close with anyone. And most of the other friends we have are young families who are busy with their little people and/or they work full time or they don’t have kids. My best friend from high school still lives in California, so do my parents & little brother, my in-laws run their own businesses (but thankfully they only live about 15 minutes away & their office is only about 10 minutes away!), and our other extended family members that live here in NY all live over an hour away! Before I had my Little Man, I worked full time; I got up, got ready, went to work, came home, slept & did that all over again the next day. I had a routine, a paycheck, people I enjoyed working with, adult conversations, quiet rides in the car to & from work… then bam! I didn’t!! I had a little baby boy and a house that I had NO idea what to with!

But God is faithful and always provides! God lead me to online groups & live broadcasts that other moms were leading. They provided spaces that a mom like me could relate & talk & realize that we are NOT alone! And the best friend from high school I mentioned before, she had her own Little Man last year (Valentine’s Day actually!) and because of that we talk multiple times a week now! We always stayed in contact after I left CA but once we had that bond of motherhood, it really brought us back together! Motherhood is such a special connection and something we need to cherish and nurture! Being a mom is like NOTHING else in the world; and only other moms understand that. Our husbands, try as they might, just don’t understand. We need each other! We need to be kind to each other! {watch for a post about this coming soon!}

My fresh start here is about really encouraging other moms, connecting with other moms, and to bring God the glory for it all. He knows what we need, just when we need it. I need this! I need to share my heart. I need to show other moms that it’s ok… that it’s ok to be scared but to do it anyways. That it’s ok to want to just sit and cry. That it’s ok to laugh. To really let it all out with a trusted friend. To show that GOD IS GOOD. So enjoy this ride with me and feel free to reach out!

Thank you for taking the time to read & have a good day! 🙂

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Day 7 – The Day I Had To Clean The Vacuum

It was an up & down kinda day! Little Man was moody and so was I!

I just wanted to sweep & vacuum the floors because they hadn’t been done in days due to the sickies…. but God had more in mind then just a quick sweep & vacuum job lol. The vacuum wasn’t working and Little Man was done coloring in his high chair… I was done with the day and done with stuff not working! I started to look at the vacuum a little closer and realized it was a bit clogged with hair… yes gross and tmi but it’s a girl-with-long-hair thing lol! So I tried removing the problem but the brush spinny thing still wasn’t spinning! So I had to take whole thing apart… finding more and more debris… slowly I removed it – with a bad attitude mind you – and then my hubby got home right at the end of my tantrum and helped me thankfully {hubby’s are great like that right?!}… we got all the debris out and it finally worked!

God showed me that we need to remove the junk and debris from our hearts and mind so that we can function properly! We need to think on things that are lovely and true, not negative and untrue! We need to remove those negative thoughts of “I’m not good enough”, “things will never change”, “they don’t want to help you” and replace them with I can do all things through Christ Who strengthens me (Philippians 4:13) and I am more than a conqueror through Him Who loves me (Romans 8:37). He is our help, He is our truth and hope. He gives us grace and mercy and His love! God is working on me and using these little things like cleaning the vacuum to show me how much He loves me and how much He wants to be in my life and my heart. He is showing me how to replace the bad with the good! Reminds me of Francesca Battistelli’s song “This is the stuff“! I’m so thankful for God using things like this to get my attention and my heart!

Have a great day and SMILE! 🙂

{Disclaimer – lol – I am writing this a few days late; we’re still fighting the sickies and its been an interesting few days lol}

Day 6 – Happy Mail & Scopes

Tuesday I received my giveaway prize from Amy (@PolkadotsWishes)!! It’s a beautiful little book titled “Bible Promises for Life” and its packed full with topics and scriptures to help at a moments notice! It’s kind of like the concordance in the back of the Bible.

I LOVE to get things in the mail! Well, not bills but who does lol! So this was an extra fun thing to get and I really needed it this week! I’m fighting hard this week against the enemy! He is trying to get me caught back up in the “poor me”, “things are never going to change”, “no one wants to help you” mindsets and being sick doesn’t help! But GOD is good and provides just what we need when we need it!

Periscope has been just what I needed lately! God has sent some wonderful women into my digital world through Periscope in the last few months! Jennifer Roskamp (@JenniferRoskamp) – she scopes M, T, TH, F @ 9:30am EST & Wed @ 11:30am EST, Amy Wyler (@PolkadotsWishes) – she hosts #MommyScopes at 10pm EST m-f, Wendy Woerner (@WendyWoerner), Hailey Schutte @zkmommy, MacKenzie Monroe (@BOLDturquoise) – she hosts Cultivating the Lovely Show weekdays @ 6:30am PDT, Katie M Reid (@Katie_M_Reid) – she is doing a series on RESToration weekdays at 1:30pm EST. 

All of these women have added something to my life! They have all encouraged me in one way or another! They are real women using their gifts to help and encourage those around them – real life and digital life lol. God knew I needed friendship but He also knows our current season of life!

So do yourself a favor and go follow them! Have a great day and SMILE! 🙂

P.S: a few others to follow –  @LisaJoBaker, @CrystalStine, Crystal Paine @moneysavingmom, @JenniferRothschild, @EmilyPFreeman, &  @RuthSoukup

{Disclaimer – lol – I am writing this a few days late; we’re still fighting the sickies and its been an interesting few days lol}

Day 5 – Contentment

Happy Monday! Hopefully everyone is happy and well…. we’re working on both around here today lol! I got the bug Friday and today has been the worst of it. But I’m fighting for a good attitude and am trying to give myself extra grace 🙂

I get the Christine Caine First Things First emails every day and her email today was about contentment! She said “…the truth is, real contentment can never be found out there; it can only be found in Christ. Things and people can change on a daily basis, but Jesus is the same yesterday, today and forever. Let’s determine to know the secret of contentment. His name is Jesus. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. (Philippians 4:12)”

This really spoke to me today! Part of my reasons for doing this #write31days challenge is to find more contentment in my current season. Jesus is where we find contentment. Jesus is the answer. Jesus is where we need to focus our eyes.

Praying everyone has a blessed and healthy day! 🙂

Day 4 – Family

Sunday we had a birthday party for my brother in law and his girlfriend; their birthdays aren’t until the end of the month but they leave to go back to Florida tomorrow morning. It was mostly family but a few of his high school friends were there too which was nice. Having time together is so important to us and it’s so good for Little Man to spend time with his uncle!

I’m so thankful for family, far and near! Having my in laws close by is so helpful and convenient lol. But having my mom only a phone call away is such a huge blessing! She lives in California but we still talk every day! Either by text, phone or Skype, sometimes all three lol 🙂 {take a look at her blog too! Mimi’s Encouraging Word}

Enjoy your family and take the time to tell them you love them! 🙂

Day 3

Today was not what I was expecting at all, but most days around here are not lol! {just an FYI, I use lol a lot! Its part of the reason I chose LOL Life of Lauren as my blog name :-)} After a Motrin PM induced sleep I usually am a little cloudy in the morning but it was extra this time because of being under the weather. So we got up and had our coffee as usual but then we decided that to be out of the Hubby’s way {he’s working on the basement and needed to be up and down and in and out a ton & Little Man likes to be right under-foot to see every little thing Daddy is doing lol} we would go to my in law’s house for the day. Little Man LOVES to go to Grandma & Grandpa’s house; he gets SO excited when we tell him that we’re going for a car ride to their house! So I packed the diaper bag and off we went! 🙂

On the drive over I love to look at all the houses and how pretty their walk-ways and front porches look full of flowers, plants and the beautiful decorations for the different season. Usually I get a little bummed out because our yard is just weeds currently {more on that in another post lol}. But today I realized that it’s a blessing in disguise! I can barely take care of the one plant I have and the beautiful mums some friends blessed us with a few weeks ago. {I thought I had pretty much killed the mums but after a little sunshine and a day out in the rain they perked right back up lol.} So I realized that I should be grateful I don’t have a deck full of flowers and plants and a lawn to keep up with and to just enjoy where I am at in this season! I don’t need to be focused on getting to the next season but to enjoy right now and right here.

This #write31days challenge isn’t just challenging me to write more, but challenging me to find things in my everyday to be grateful for and to find contentment in my here and now. Before the challenge started I looked up a few words to help me get started & this is what I found and thought about…….

Contentment = the state of being contented; satisfaction; ease of mind.

  • contented = adjective – satisfied; content.
  • content = satisfied with what one is or has; not wanting more or anything else.

satisfaction – ease of mind – satisfied – satisfied with what ONE IS OR HAS!!!!!!!!

satisfy = verb (used with object), satisfied, satisfying.

  1. to fulfill the desires, expectations, needs, or demands of (a person, the mind, etc.); give full contentment to

I tend to get bogged down in the details and the small picture. But when I look at the big picture and think about what we are working towards, I change my perspective and see a lot more clearly. Knowing this about myself I am trying to do the perspective change more often. I’m trying not to get so down on the little stuff that is just temporary and trying to focus more on God and His GRACE! God is working ALL THINGS for good according to HIS purpose! (see Romans 8:28) God’s got a plan and my job is to trust in Him and to rely on Him.

So with that I will end it! I hope you have a great night and sleep well! {Here’s hoping we all sleep again tonight!} 🙂

Day 2

HAPPY FRIDAY!!

SOOOO glad its Friday!! It’s been a LONG week here with the hubby being sick and Little Man got it Wednesday too 😦 And of course I started to get a sore throat yesterday and today I’m just plain tired!

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So I didn’t get to finish this post Friday night because Little Man needed extra cuddles and I needed rest after he finally went to sleep after 8pm! Its Saturday so I’ll be finishing this post for Friday’s (Day 2) and then I’ll write Day 3.

Friday night was nice because I got to watch a lot of Bones while Oman tried to fall asleep lol. Even though season 11 started I’m rewatching season 10, I just can’t help it! I love Bones!

ANYWAYS! Back on track……

I’m grateful for vitamins, hot tea, and Motrin PM 🙂 Vitamins & hot tea helped during the day to make me feel better and a good night’s sleep from the help of Motrin PM is much needed!

Also on my list today is my Hubby! Even being under the weather and working a full day he still went to his uncle’s house (about an hour away) and helped with their heating system! The Hubby is such a hard working and always gives his time! He’s such a good example for Little Man!!

Hope everyone had a great night and enjoys their weekend!